goodness and goodness only

This pregnancy has seemed so long, but now I have come to realize that I only have a few short months left with my little boy. It is as though my perspective has radically changed over night. There are so many decisions yet to be made concerning his birth and death, things to think through, pray about, things both jon and I have avoided thus far. At times it can just seem like too much too fast (funny that we have had 5 months now to prepare for this). the hardest thought of all is thinking that I soon am going to have to let this little one go. When I end with these thoughts, I am usually tempted to despair, but when I lift my eyes to Him who carries my burdens for me…I am filled once again with hope. He has given me grace each and every day for the past 5 months to carry this burden and I can trust that He will provide when ‘that’ time comes in a few short months.

My soul was feed this morning from the book, Besides Still Waters by CH Spurgeon (page 91). He knows our future needs and out of the fullness of Christ Jesus He provides from his goodness…it is goodness that He has prepared for the poor in heart. Goodness, and goodness only. ‘My grace is sufficient for you,’ (2 Cor12:9). ‘As your days, so shall your strength be.’ (Deut 33:25)…you will never be in a position where Christ can not help you. There will never be a bind in your spiritual life where Jesus Christ will not be equal to the emergency. Your history is foreknown and provided for in Jesus Christ.